MLC, nobody is tougher on me, than me, so I don’t find this harsh.
I can see how you would think I’m coming from a. Place of self pity. complete unhappiness, and needing a relationship.
The truth is, I appreciate the positives in my life. I’ve worked extremely hard for them.
I don’t even think it’s a romantic relationship I’m craving, it’s just human relationships. See, I’m not looking for happiness externally. But a part of me , that fuels me, is human connection. It’s the most important thing in life to me. And I’ve lost a lot of that recently.
It’s not self pity. It’s a true pain deep down inside. I wish it would go away.
My friends have drifted away during this whole pandemic . It’s been tough.
But I am very great full I created a life where my kid wants for nothing , I can support Is, and we are healthy. I have a lot of positives.
I hope maybe one day I can have my friendships back, or new ones. Maybe even have a partner, but that I’m not banking on that.
But I’ll be ok. I’m always ok in the end. D12 and I had a nice day together . That relationship is solid
