Originally Posted by MamaB25
We took the kids to the beach together and lunch / go karts etc.

It's a year later and you aren't over him--it sounds like you need to give yourself space to move on--maybe go dark on accepting coffee, gifts, breakfast, texts about his troubles, and spending holidays together.

Originally Posted by MamaB25
Why does he send me mixed messages but date other women??

As stated, to keep you holding on.

Originally Posted by MamaB25
but I don’t know where to start. It’s impossible communicating with him

The starting point is he has to want to reconcile. If he ever does, you will know.

Originally Posted by MamaB25
happy as can be living the “bachelor” lifestyle. How am I the one who is sad all the time , lonely , and raising our babies alone??

You have to find your own happy, in your role as a mom, in your hobbies, in your life as a single lady. Even if you want to R someday, you must know your odds are better if you're not sad and lonely. And if you're not sad and lonely, you may not want to R so much. If you're watching your kids alone, consider pushing him to take the kids one night OR pushing him for enough child support to take a couple half-days off per week.