1 week into the surgery recovery I decided I could take any more time pent up inside. Took off to Ventura beach to get a change of scenery and sea air to clear my head. Being there alone was overall a nice experience. Got to put in an 8 mile walk and enjoy the sea for a bit. Definitely pulled back a handful of memories but after 13 years of exploring everything with my wife there isnt really any avoiding that. It was a nice break from the norm though.
The rest of the time as basically been part for the course. I no longer start conversations. Wife is mostly as distance as ever. There are some small changes here and there but I don't feel they mean anything. She stopped to ask how I was when I was packing for beach. Questioned where I was going. Asked to see my incisions. Complimented the shirt I was wearing, a shirt I had bought a couple years ago and didn't fit I was so excited to finally wear it. When I came back she asked about where I went. I wasn't sure when I left. My conversation back is usually pretty minimal thanks and small tid bits. Today I was speaking to a friend in my room for a few hours on the phone. When I answered and went to leave the living room she stopped me to talk about for a bit. Then later asked to come in and look something that I'm fairly sure wouldn't have been there. Then knocked again to tell me she was leaving. Strange behavior she hadn't cares in awhile. Aww well who knows what shes thinking.
Decided to go to my sister's to eat dinner and watch fireworks it's been a very chill and relaxing night. Hope everyone here is having a good 4th.
