Newlywed and DB-ing (part 3)

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The divorce meeting is this afternoon.

I have a big decision to make. I can feel myself getting anxious. I need some clarity.

My mind is rocking back and forth between two choices: going straight D vs MR route. Right now, my gut, my heart is telling me to go for the counseling route. To try everything I can to save my M. It’s telling me, if I am going down, I should go down fighting. Even if the MR fails, at least I can say I tried it all and no regrets..right?

WAW definitely prefers to have D soon. If I were to agree to that, isn’t that me basically me conceding to her whims? How is that different than NGS behaviour? Doesn’t that make me a pushover? NMMNG is telling me to go with what I want.

People tell me to do what I believe in. What do I believe in? I don’t even know at this point. I keep doubting myself. I don’t want regrets. I want to be happy.