Completely lost, where am I?

[ovrrnbw]

Listen and validate, keep your cards close to your chest. She's not back in this. Don't believe her words.

When she says

She says she doesn't know how to forgive and forget.

You should say: "Wow, that sounds really hard for you". That would show her that you were listening.

I have even considered getting a Bumble account, just to find other people to have a conversation with other than my W and Step-D. The thing is, when I was secure in my R I never felt like I needed any other people in my life, now I find that is what I crave the most.

So file for divorce, get a divorce, and then chat with women on Bumble. Don't cheat to cover up your insecurities.