Especially when she is pushing for me to move out.
Its as if she thinks I want to stay as its comfortable and I don't want to start over. I mean as much as I can understand why she feels like that, and to a certain extent it is partially true, I don't want to start again. I got married because I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. It may have took me some years to finally grow up and realise, but I just love her. I want a happy marriage and I want a happy family.
I will keep trying to Detach from the situation and try my best to not let it affect me. Its a hard time to try and GAL while still in lockdown.
I think the hardest part is that once I have finally grew up and stopped a lot of the things which caused a divide between us throughout our relationship is the time she wants to walk away.
Onward and upward, I cant control her feelings, I can just keep improving on me and realise that whatever happens I will be fine. Its not what I wanted but I have told her how I feel. For it to ever work she needs to choose the marriage and be willing to talk about the real reasons why it didn't work. I believe in love and if what we had was ever love then I think its possible to re-connect that love.
