DB'ing while living in with a WAS/MLC husband

[BlueSea]

Blue, how are you doing today? Have you been able to get out into your yard and relax in the sunshine? Get a little mental break from what is happening?

Thanks May, I don't feel like I am in a good place. There is a lot of tension in the house. Thank you for asking, really.
H seems just mad and is pretty gruff with me.
I have tried to continue to DB and reading the DR book again.
Just feeling sad and lifeless. How does one get over the constant bad looks you get from your spouse?

There is nothing I can say that is right. Its hard to look or appear like your GAL'ing...when your just not.
Its hard to act 'as if' when you know its bad - MWDs example of coming back from a trip and acting 'as if' with your spouse, ie, throwing her arms around him happy to see him ---- how is that even applicable here? I tell you that would not go over well at all over here.

Cheer leading section: not much to be show thankfulness - and I am not supposed to be talking to him anyway right? Very confusing all of it. I know I am not processing much anyway - which is frustrating. I am back to the basics of getting thru the hour, then thru the day.

Typically, I might have a few things to say during the day to be pleasant. Its always scoffed at. I do know that there is a fine line between too much talking and not talking...somewhere is a good middle ground. But that seems to be a shifting target because he is Jekyll and Hyde to me - though he professes to be cool & constant.

Not cooking anymore, just tired and not motivated - kids are loving the take-out at least.

Thank you BluWave - believe it or not, I was reading alot of your posts - so whatever you want to share with me, I would really appreciate it.