Being sad doesn't sound stupid to me, FS. And you are very wise to look your sadness in the eye rather than use online dating to take the edge off it. Your H is probably sad too, in his own way, and acting like a teenager throwing his weight about when he's around you. I am sure being in the house does trigger him. The end of a marriage is a sad, sad thing. But I am so glad that you are making tiny progress with D13. She needs you to be steady and forgiving, as you have been.