I listened to and deleted old voicemails to clean up my phone. Had several from W calling to tell me how much she loved me. Amazing what changes in a person. Just sad, she was so sweet and feminine in the time before time. The woman before me is the same or worse as the one I've seen presented to friends, coworkers, strangers, etc. Its like she had a GF/wife persona she killed off.
I started the Power of Now book and its seemingly good so far. One odd thing is that I got to thinking that anxiety is useful. I may not let go of it. During the times I'm controlling it, I've so much energy.
S1 has learned to climb shelving and is getting on the counter which has a plethora of knives, choking hazards, valuables, cords, chemicals. You get the idea. Im impressed overall with his skill and more so his stealth. I had no idea he was up there until he knocked down D4s toys she was hiding from him.
As I teeter taughter away from thinking I need to file for D ASAP, I still debate how to handle this unofficial IHS. Like, we never agreed to or called this IHS. No rules, no boundaries. On her end Just I want a D. Wait I want the M. Wait I want space. She wants space yet closes in on me more and more, in a sometimes friendly way. I dont want to attach, so I am debating separate meals and avoiding her more.
Last edited by Core; 06/29/2006:04 PM.
H37, W37 D4, S2 ILYBNILWY 9/19 BD 9/19 EA discovered 10/19 Currently in limbo, no D or S process initiated
