Just re-read my current thread. Gosh, a lot can happen in 3 months.
I don't have much to say about any feelings towards H at the moment. Standing for the M? Giving up on the M? to me my action would still be the same for right now - not filing D. I think about filing often, but my sole reason would be to "get it over with" and be able to just stop people from talking to me about H. But would it? I suspect it will not be as clean as I think it would be. Anyways, my point is I feel like there is no immediate need for me to be legally "not-married," and I do feel free already just from DBing...so no rush on my end.
Esp with what's happening around the world right now, BLM...covid...my M problems seem sort of inconsequential.
Still reminding myself to keep choosing kindness and compassion. Even if it's mixed with melancholy. I can usually sense it when I'm heading towards the dark side by now. I've processed through the dark side. No need to go back there.
that's about it for tonight. Tonight I am thinking about all the people here trying to push through their heartache...I hope you guys find peace and serenity. stay focused. stay strong. xoxo.
