Thank you again to everyone!!! I do read and sit and think about everyone's advice even though it may not seem that way. Many are printed out so I can read regularly especially when I need a boost in the right direction.
I'm still drying out my car.... sigh.... its very humid here so that's an issue and of course I'm concerned about mold. One step at a time.
Got up this morning and the drive drive stopped working on my desktop.... AND, of course I'd been making plans to do a better back up... but hadn't gotten to it. S18 is a total nerd and feels the control/power panel on the drive is fried but there should be protections in place to have not damaged the drive. It will take him a few days to get a new power control for the drive. Like I needed anymore stress!!!
I'm going to share my H's text to me on Friday. He hasn't shared feelings like this since February and honestly this is deeper than what he shared then. As LH pointed out it's probably a closure statement more than anything.
H: I am a rebllious person always setting rules and limitations causes resentment. Living in fear is no life worth living. I knew this wasn't healthy a while ago. I tried to live in a lifestyle that you wanted and I felt pinned, restricted, regulated. I wants things yes who doesn't but I want to enjoy things that I enjoy the ways I enjoy them. No rules, no ultimatums, no restrictions. We argued constantly because I wasn't heard to listened to. I wasn't using my knowledge and my gifts, instead I have to push myself away from what I know what I can do. I failed to see that earlier I showed no respect for myself in that I could not respet anyone else
H: If that makes sense.
I have zero expectations. I don't expect he will follow up again.
