We are all rooting for you in your sitch. Why else would complete strangers invest their time in trying to help you see a different perspective? I don't think Joseph is that far off about you being stuck. If it isn't the case and you get upset about it, maybe ask yourself why it bothers you. Your threads consistently are about your H. I brought up fear a couple of days ago and not surprisingly you disagree. I brought up boundaries and you glossed over those posts. There have been other posters provide amazing advice to you and suggest IC, many time you disagree.
Your H complained that you don't listen this week when you brought up relationship talk. Ummm.....I'd venture to say you demonstrate that trait pretty consistently or dismiss what people suggest. We don't always know what works, but we have a good idea what doesn't work. We all have choices. You get to choose to continue the rinse and repeat cycle or you will decide when what you are doing is not working. At some point you will choose the latter.
At the very least, I hope the silent people following your threads are finding the advice to be helpful to them.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa