Thank you all. I’m relieved she’s at peace. Tomorrow are the services. So sad, there were 3 sisters and the older brother and only the older brother is left. I was supposed to work tomorrow, but my second job was kind and filled my spot with no questions asked.
It’s Friday night and I hate Friday nights alone. My D went on a last minute trip to RI with her father and his wife. It’s one of the things that kill me to this day. I am so happy she has somewhere to go and she is enjoying herself. But it still kills me emotionally when the 3 of them go away on vacation. People must think she’s the hoe’s daughter. One big happy family. She FaceTimed me from the hotel room last night and from the waters edge today. I love she wants to include me in some way. It just stinks for me. No one else but me, so I have to suck it up
This stuff is tough. Being alone is tough. And it’s by choice, but it’s still pretty hard. I still have some family envy. And I miss my friends who just aren’t interested right now. They are just sticking with their families. It’s really really difficult at times. And I won’t lie, when I chose to be alone and not settle, I do ask myself “ Should I have just tried? I would have a date tonight, a dinner out, something, etc.”
But I know it’s not the right reasons . I’m holding out and hopefully for something pretty mind-blowing
