In the moment, no, he doesn't actually walk. But it isn't stopping him from wanting to or thinking about it either. I guess it just means he isn't prepared to do it quite yet. Gift of time and all that. Though a big part of me wishes he would just go if he can't cut out the rest of this $hit.
Blue, how are you doing today? Have you been able to get out into your yard and relax in the sunshine? Get a little mental break from what is happening? Remember, none of what is happening is your fault. You don't deserve any of this. I think this is a good time to try to support yourself and do whatever little things you need to do in order to soothe yourself. If you need a little extra push, what helps me is to think about my kids and being sure my gas tank is full enough to be the best mom I can be.
Also, just to check in on the not-as-positive side... has anything else happened that is scary to you at all? Were you able to get the firearms out of the house?
Thinking of you! xx
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
