Me: Thank you for bringing puppy. It was hard letting him go but I know I made the right choice. You've really bonded and I'm glad he gets to go to the farm and play in the creek. I'd love to see that ((I have already thanked him... THIS WAS GARBAGE))
2hr later
Me: You still have my garage opener? H: Yes I guess I do Me: Your books are on the desk. You can leave opener behind, go out front door and then lock it again? H: Ok
1hr later
Me: Are you happy? ((OMG who took over my brain????))
40min later
Me: I just wanted to know if you are happy? ((Really??? He didn't answer the first time idiot!)) H: Can you be more specific? H: Generally yes quite, well rested, good friends, and family much closer. Doing simple things has given me much pleasure Me: I regret how isolated you were here. I always wished we had at least 1 or 2 "couple friend" to do things with.
30min later
H: Your supposed to be sleeping ((this is a common thing he says whenever I would be awake texting him when I was supposed to be sleeping and resting)) Me: I spend most nights reading. if there's a self help book on how to stop being a controlling wife I've read it or am reading it... lol Me: I'm glad your happy. H: ok why? Me: ?Why am I glad you're happy? H: Why are you reading self help books Me: Digging deep to find out why I was pulling away from you last fall...
Understanding how disrespectful I was to you by recognizing all my controlling behaviors... that I always had utmost respect for you but learning how I can give/show respect in M.
In telling me your stress/sleep deprivation, your frustration with me - you just wanted to be heard. By just agreeing with you that we needed to move to lower your stress I would have been putting my trust in you in making what you thought was the best decision for us -- that would be showing you respect.
Control comes from fear.
I learned about the 4 horesman and which ones I'm guilty of and how to keep those horses in the stable. How I can be a better wife or at least a better person.
LOL! sorry you asked??? ((And, who is surprised he checked out - that answer was WAY too long))
This was the most pointless conversation ever!!!! I get that - what alien abducted me??? The use of 'us' COMPLETELY off putting. All I really said is "I''m the problem... if you ever start to think about me and think that you may want to try again you will remember this conversation and go... oh, right... she got this problem... that's why I can't go there.
WTH KitCat
Apparently, I need a new set of books focusing on how to stop the drama.
Of course he said nothing... of course he came and got the books and dropped off the remote and didn't text he left. He's got plan b in his back pocket.
I get it....
This weekend I'm leaving the phone down and staying off the computer. I need to make a list of several things I can do that don't require any of this. I need to establish new routines.
That's why I said JUNE 25 is my day... I told you upfront I was dealing with a lot of shame but i can handle criticism where criticism is due.
