You are probably also right that he's siting up pretty tall liking his view point that I'm still under his thumb.
After all those years that you had the control he is enjoying being the puppet master.
Touche'
Do you really think he enjoys that I'm just sitting here looking for bread crumbs or it he just annoyed that I can't get the message???
Your right I really think he does... maybe not on a conscious level??? Maybe when I feel stronger I can admit to what happened last night. I don't want to be judged. I started it and then I think I let him bait me into a trap... I was exhausted and not making good decisions. No sleep last night.
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Originally Posted by KitCat
I need to sit with my feelings. Yesterday was pretty painful. I need to remind myself that doing nothing is doing something. That so long as I remain in contact with him he gets all the time in the world to get over me.
You don't have to get over something you can have at anytime you want it. How can you change the dynamic.
Originally Posted by KitCat
Its time for me to toughen up.
You have been saying this for months now. I think it's time.
So things ended last night with me reminding him he still had my overhead door opener. I let him know the books were on the desk so he could let himself in while I was at work and leave the opener and go out the front door since it can be locked from the outside without a key or code.
He responded with OK.
I figured he would let me know via text when he had been round to the house since I was not home. YUP --- EXPECTATIONS. Got to stop doing that.
I really want peace. I know I know I know -that is 100% up to me and has nothing to do with him.
