DB'ing while living in with a WAS/MLC husband

[BlueSea]

Blu - it would be great if I can get your advice on my situation - I have read some of your threads and your posts and they are always insightful and helpful. I would so appreciate it.

LH - not sure if testosterone is a steroid, but after talking to my dr about his dosage, its pretty high from what I told her.. She suggested that I remove all firearms from the house, which I plan to do soon. He is also on human growth hormone. I do agree that the boards are geared to divorce topics and have no problem keeping it there.
- I did let him know that I was not okay with what happened. He blamed me saying that I had said (weeks ago) that he was a 'nice guy' in context of the NGS and he turned it all back on me.
- As well, with the std, his first reaction was, "It wasn't me". And professed his safety for a long time, pretty much until the test results came in.
- I will not have any further safety issues, because I will not be with him in that way again.

Steve - I really wanted to be honest, because this is a part of my situation. Honestly, I could not handle this situation alone, without advice and support from this board, so I really appreciate being here.

I know I have messed things up. He took a 'day' ride today - and lied about where he really went - not going where he said he was going. All his usual tells just coming out in full force again. Not good. I shouldn't care, I know, but I do, and its all backsliding. I have pushed him far. Maybe at this point, just keeping my mouth shut would be a good first step.