DB'ing while living in with a WAS/MLC husband

[BlueSea]

Okay... if I could have edited my post...which I could not, but this is what it should have been:


Ginger, this is really sensitive territory for me, and (this is the third post I ask)...I would appreciate if you just skip my thread. I don't understand why you had to come back and post again. Your advice goes sideways for me.

It happened.. Things could have been way worse. I close that chapter with lesson learned. My H is an a@@hole that is pumped full of testosterone and I should have known better after that first experience. I made the choice to try again. He should not have acted like that. I know that. But I don't feel like I need to flee.

I am pretty raw emotionally, so please, just tread lightly, no more r posts. I just have my defenses up and probably over reacting - I know its all meant well - but some of the posts have made me pop a circuit breaker emotionally. I literally had to edit my original post which consisted of mostly f bombs.

Why did I post? So, I know LH is an awesome person (you are) and I know I was f'ing up - but I just wanted him to know - to just know there was more than me not trying. SO I posted - and I regret it. The shock is new to you all, but not to me - does that even make sense?

I appreciate this board and don't want to leave. What a mess I have made here. Now the focus is all on that incident. LH? Steve? (Spiral -if your still here?) help me climb out of this muck. Job.delete it. fix it. How can I even come back?