Please giggle, my dear. I do. All the time. Even when I'm sure from the outside it looks like I shouldn't. And honestly if I didn't have my sense of humor through all this even in the really dark days I don't know that I would've survived. But I've always had kind a dark and quirky sense of humor.
Well July rent is due in a week and no packing is being done and no word on a lease so I'm guessing he's paying July's rent too. As it seems like his actions are progressing in tiny increments I'm leaving it alone. I think if we were still kinda at a stand still I'd be more keen on poking the bear but as it is, I'm just going to let it ride and see what he's going to do here. I'm still very much prepared for either path. I'd obviously rather he stay and we fix this, but if he'd rather go I'm not going to stop him. My A type nature and control are big issues for him so letting him just have this, and find his way back on his own volition I think is going to be a big part of the healing process. And taking this tortoise pace is helping me deal with my anger and sadness over the A and working towards forgiveness. If there's a time where he's ready to work through the A I want to have done enough of my own work that we can just focus on rebuilding trust and digging into how we ended up there.
