I mean what 4months ago standing in the kitchen together and he is angry. His voice and tone are harsh... so much anger H-"IDK MAYBE I JUST WANTED TO HAVE HOPE" Me - "I want to have to have hope too" BUt, there was eye contact!!!
This is going to hurt to face, but it is important. For you that meant you wanted hope in the saving the MR. For him, he meant hope in general (as in to him staying in the MR meant no hope). Remember, believe nothing he says. WSs are notorious for talking in double-speak. They say things in a way so that when you take it the way you want to, later they can claim they didn't mean it that way. If you later say to him "You told me in the kitchen you wanted to have hope in us too" he would quickly point out that he didn't say "in us".
KC, I know you've struggled with this. But anger towards didn't meant that he was not going to come back. And being nice doesn't mean he was going to come back. Being indifferent doesn't mean one or the other.
But I do like that you said you need to go NC and not looking at him over your shoulder...because that is exactly what you have been doing.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
