It’s time for me to move on. I just want to concentrate 100% on being a great Dad, work a great job so I can provide financially for my family, and get on with the rest of my life. I definitely need to be free of the stress and drama and heartache of always trying to rescue and placate a sociopath.
I still have the odd bad day here and there, but they’re much more infrequent now, and overall I’m at peace that the happiest way forward is without her. That will produce the strongest, most resilient Dad in the long term - so that is what I am doing for my kids.
I hope she gets her **** in a pile, because I’d like to see her happy eventually. I don’t wish anything bad on her, no matter how cruel and manipulative and immoral she chooses to be towards me. Most likely a long journey of discovery and self realisation is beyond her, but I hope for her sake she can climb that mountain. As my IC always tells me “the best predictor of future behavior is past behavior!”
I’m going to head on over to the divorce forum and continue my journey there. Once I start a thread I’ll link from here to there.
I’m still stood down from work, but that’s good! I’m renovating, painting, camping with the kids, bike riding, going out for coffee, and reconnecting with so many great people. I’ve also been hitting the gym hard and have put on 8kg since separation and a six pack has slowly appeared.
When I have custody of my two little men, I still sneak in at night and watch them sleep for a few mins. This strong, rebuilding man is still brought to his knees by their innocence!
I hope everyone is well. This is such a great community... I hope one day to be able to give back and support others as you’ve all supported me.
