If I became the man I described, I wouldn't want her back. I don't want her back, attraction is diminished.
Its stressful being openly lied to and being taken advantage of. Its stressful having her lie to friends and family about me. It's stressful living in a cluttered home (picture a calm version of hoarders, thats her areas). Its stressful hearing teenage girl huffs and puffs over tiny things. W spends money daily on nonessentials adding to clutter and depleting money that could go to kids college. I am stressed that I cant live my life how I want to. For example, Ive been selling my possessions on eBay for years to take out chunks of the mortgage. I cant do that anymore as she'll now get half. I'm stuck until I make the move and not moving forward in life, sitting stagnant stresses me.
H37, W37 D4, S2 ILYBNILWY 9/19 BD 9/19 EA discovered 10/19 Currently in limbo, no D or S process initiated
