I do not think you were ready for this. Did you do this out of a place of strength, or weakness? Did you do it out of courage or of fear?
I did it out of strength.... Fear was not a factor at all -- fear of what??? Missing out??? Aren't I already there??? Courage??? I'm not sure I would use that to apply to anything I've been doing.
It boiled down to 2 things 1) It was getting difficult to text someone without bringing up the text menu... so even if his text was muted I would still see it at the top of the text menu AND 2) with H having 98% of his stuff there is NO reason to text and he hasn't been. Because he no longer texts, when I do get a text notification the last thing I assume is its from him. So I'm no longer panicking "why is he texting? blah blah blah". There have been NO angry texts in 2 months and those were the ones that made me spin the most.
I will admit my 4hr drive home on Sunday - yes he was on my mind alot. But, yesterday I have just a complete peace... really and truly.
I will have to see him tomorrow morning. I will have his stuff together. I plan on letting him and allowing him to get what he feels he needs but I will be busy doing other things. I will not look to engage him in anything. If he feels that he needs to speak with me he can come to me. I will listen what he feels he needs to say but I will not be adding anything to the conversation. I'm not trying to mind read but I am prepping myself that he will most likely bring up my atty and legal stuff since its been 6weeks.
No one feels that he will ever come back and want to work on the M. I'm at a place where I know this is the truth... but I will always have hope because I'm the optimist.
