I remembered something else you had posted that really resonated with me:
“I have so much fear for my children and anger towards my H for putting us all in this situation. To the very core of my being, I believe that when we chose to have the two of them, we made a family and far more so than our wedding vows, to me this was a sacred promise to them never to break up the family.”
I feel this viscerally, to the core of who I am. I’ve said it almost verbatim. The unspoken promise H made to me when he had my daughter with me feel 10000 times more sacred and important than our wedding vows to me. I can NOT fathom how he doesn’t also feel that, at least enough to give this family some real effort. I feel like if I could understand that part it would help me somehow. It’s the biggest betrayal of all of this to me by far, and I can feel from your words that you feel that way also.
Sorry I doubt this is helpful at all. I just wanted to relate xx
