Another update. Told the chap I slept with that I wasn't ready for a R, he was really keen on me and he was great on paper but I think I'm so used to my H being horrible to me for so many years that subconsciously I can't handle someone being nice to me. I might stay friends with him. I text one of the other chaps I dated twice a few times a day, we don't fancy each other though so no pressure either side. I have a couple more dates lined up but then I think I might take a break for a while. I'm happy enough with friends and walking groups right now, my life is pretty busy and it would be best focusing on friends and job applications for a bit. H has still not finished his job. I need to talk to him about financial stuff. It's not my way to raise subjects but this is important stuff. In a funny way I have a bit more empathy with H right now, he is not ready for a R with anyone and probably feels trapped if I go anywhere near him, a bit like my last date. I'm in no hurry to push anything along at all, though I will get things sorted in readiness for D without telling H about it yet. Looks like I'm choosing limbo for a while longer. Oh, and my best friend told me about her dad yesterday. 30 years ago when he was 40 he left his career, was spinning and though he was in love with someone and was all ready to leave the family. He came to his senses eventually and is still with her mum. I must ask her how long that all took...
