I just wanted to let you know that your posting over on Surviving the Big D was deleted. We are not allowed to post outside links, refer to other sites, etc. on the Board. You may want to look at the thread that is a sticky that discusses the Board policies and general info.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.