So I'm here I'm watching and reading and thinking of you, May I hope you know that. There are a few things I want to say with out telling you what to do because you seem to be getting a lot of that. I'm just going to tell you one thing: May be kind to yourself. Please, please be kind to May in whatever you do going forward. Don't beat yourself up over what you did or didn't do right up until this point. Don't beat yourself up if you need time to mull over your next move here. Don't beat yourself up if you are totally incapable of detaching right now. Don't over analyze what you say or do right now. You are being taken down with the ship. You are not responsible for anything you say or do until you get your bearings. That's not a free pass to be evil, but it is a free pass to survive this any way necessary, ok? Be kind and forgiving of yourself.
Next he was leaning in. He was letting go. But he's hard headed and wants to do things his way. And this relapse or collapse whatever it maybe is entirely because he was unwilling to accept that any one knew better than him about how to let go of an AP. He wasn't fooling you the last 4 months. They weren't a lie. This idiot has been honest to a fault in the last 4 months. I truly believe he does love you. I truly believe he does want his family. But he very much wants his fantasy regardless of the fall out it will have on the former. The question here isn't if he was lying this whole time. He wasn't. Question here isn't who is going to D first or if H should get the h3ll out yesterday. The question here is is it time for May to just love May more. More than her marriage. More than her old life. More than her fears for her children. More than her H. Is it time to love yourself more than you love anything or any one else? Is it time for you to be the one making self involved choices so that you can come out on the other side of this being the May you want to see on the other side?
I have some comments on the way emotional abuse is being thrown around here, but I'll keep those to myself because I don't want that hijacking your thread. But I'm sure you can figure out where I'm going with that
