It's been a little while since I have posted and I thought I would share my recent experiences. I was released from National Guard Duty and I went right back to work, could not see myself sitting around. I was feeling low during that time and reached out to a mutual friend for validation, obviously, that did not go well and W called upset. I have to agree with her on this point, I have been putting our mutual friends in the middle of the sitch. That was really good for me and I have been able to look for more positive venues of validation.
I talked with my DB coach and she told me to stop listening to everyone's advice and do what she has been telling me. So, I am committed to working on the friendship with the W. No matter the outcome of our R, I will be in a better place for it and I will know that I made the effort. Not saying that it has been easy, she told me the other day that she was planning on moving out of her parent's house and getting an apartment. I'm not sure why this has been such a difficult thing for me to handle, but I have been doing well when talking with her about it. She actually said that she was surprised at how supportive I was being and that she was really nervous about bringing up the topic with me.
Each day everything gets a little better, but I would really like to get off the roller coaster. I know that this is a long process and not to expect anything and to GAL, but some days I just want to scream.
