I'm about to go to bed May, but I just checked in here to see if you were okay. I know I can be cold and too harsh in my posts sometimes, and that I have caused you some pain doing that before. Just know that this crazy lady in the UK with her tea-cup in bed is utterly disgusted by your H and very admiring of how you are handling yourself. And I only know this stuff because I had it drummed into me - HARD and OFTEN - both here and by my IC.