It is what it is ---- I will stop having expectations
I just loaded my amazon cart with more reading. Not that I haven't done a ton already - per AS Happiness Trap.
But also picked up Boundaries in M, Love and Respect, The Empowered Wife and the lastly the one about How to Save M without Speaking.
I had such overwhelming feeling of shame this morning after getting off the phone. Though I did not beg, plead or pursue but still the whole thing reeked of desperation. When I get off the phone I feel all dirty and gross.
As much as I am GAL and 180s I'm a total disaster at LRT.
I know I cannot nice him back OR talk him back OR say here's what I learned - this is where I'm at with my self discovery. I get it now... I do... so I want you back so you can see the better version of me. JUST LOOK AT ME... don't look at her... LOOK AT ME.
