I agree w/bttrfly. When you keep your focus on the present, it's much better than trying to keep looking in the rear view mirror.

I am so sorry that you are stressed and working two jobs. The stress is nothing to play with and I do hope that you are finding things to help you destress when you arrive home.

I am very sorry about your aunt. It is always a difficult time when you know that a loved one is very close to passing away. I pray that she passes peacefully and all of you can find comfort in the memories that you created and shared with her over the years.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.