I'm so sorry May. This whole thing is such BS. His authentic self crap was exactly all that crap. The fact is he still doesn't know what he wants. Which is why he wants to stay and why he wants 6 months to see where things go. There is no real ulterior motive behind it. It's that he has 2 paths in front of him and he has no idea which to choose. Because like all these amazing WS/WAS they are chasing happiness thinking it's something you get from someone else. It's absolutely abhorrent that he'd think you'd sit around and wait for him for another 6 months after you've already been basically waiting this out 2 years. You don't have to talk through his feelings with him about his AP and he's insane for thinking that. He's grown. He has an IC. He needs to talk that out in the appropriate space. And the fact that you didn't kick him directly in the family jewels after all of this, seriously, bless you for that. Because I honestly don't know that I could've kept it that together.
That being said. You have time here to decide what you want to do. And how you want to proceed. I know this is crisis all over again and you just want a foothold or a place to grip so you can drag yourself along here, but he's in a tail spin and you don't need to go down with him. Take your time thinking about your new boundaries, your next move, your next 10 moves. I really like the suggestion of getting away for a few days. I think that would help like a lot. Some space from H and the house. I'm thinking of you. xoxo
