So I forgot to mention that in our MC session on Friday, the W told the MC that the OM had basically discarded her abandoning their "friendship" and that she was upset b/c even though the EA was over she wanted to go back to being friends like they were prior to the EA. The MC asked me how that made me feel. "I have no opinion or feelings about it.", I answered. The MC, was like "Come on, you have to have some feelings about it." I said, "There are only two possible outcomes here. We either stay together or we get a divorce. I have already accepted both outcomes and I know I will be fine either way. So I really don't have any feelings on this." The MC asked the W how that made her feel and she said, "That stings".
My GAL'ing isn't going as well as I had hoped. I have started working on my personal projects around the house. Cleaning in the garage to prep for my wood shop, finished priming the foot locker for painting, etc. Using that time for me and to avoid/ignore the W. However the going OUT part isn't going so well. I have been going out on Friday's and/or Saturday's to places that used to be packed and they all look like ghost towns now. It's like everyone is still terrified of C19. Last night I ended up at a bar and while it wasn't completely dead, there were only 2 large groups each occupying a large table area, and 3 younger couples all sitting separately on obvious dates. This bar has dart boards, I was hoping to find some people playing that I could ask to join but no one was. I ended up drinking only 1 beer while watching ESPN on one of their TV's then going out to my car and listening to an audio book for a while.
How are other people getting out and making new friends in the middle of this C19 mess? Seriously looking for tips b/c what I'm doing isn't working.
One other thing to note. Last night as I was getting ready to go out and the W was getting ready for bed, she point blank asked me if I was planning on meeting some new woman and having a "revenge affair". I froze for a second contemplating all possible answers. I knew if I said "yes", "maybe", or even "probably not" that that would be essentially telling her we are now in an open M which I absolutely do not want. I also knew that giving a firm "no" would take away most of the "mystery" and "worry" of me trying to GAL without her. I didn't want to give any answer, but I ended up going with the "no" to prevent ending up in an unwanted open M. I told her "I take my vows seriously so you don't have to worry about that". She said "Ouch", indicating that she took that as a dig at her her. I told her it wasn't a dig at her. It was just a way to let her know I was not looking for a replacement for her, yet. Then she kissed me goodnight and I left.
