Yes, FS, it's the lying and betrayal which is just pinpricking its way throughout all this. The OBVIOUS lying and betrayal, because taking out so much cash during a pandemic feels like he's deliberately trying to provoke me or test me or something. I'm not biting yet.
Interesting thing this afternoon. An email to our joint account saying that someone in West Sussex had logged onto our (joint) Netflix account. Our other house is not in West Sussex. And oh look, that �800 he spent a few days ago is about the right amount for a large telly isn't it? I was so ridiculously triggered. I left the email as read. Texted H about something to do with the builder (I had to do this anyway) but asked him if he was there. He rang back about 10 minutes later sounding flustered saying he was at the supermarket and I explained about the builder stuff. There was some evidence that he was at our other house. He immediately rang ds2 to talk to him (interesting timing?) and then about 5 minutes later the email was deleted. Is he setting up home with a blonde with big knockers (I know his type now)? I would so much rather he just told me instead of going behind my back and drip feeding me these little lies and betrayals. Anyway, I'm off to change the Netflix password to something abusive
Online dating has kind of fizzled out a bit. Hard to find someone suitable, though I think I could have sex any day of the week if I fancied it, and with some rather hot 30 somethings too for some reason. I'm looking for a relationship though, even if only a short term one. One where someone cares about my day and what I'm interested in. H hasn't done that for, well, I can't even remember the last time that was the case. I deserve sooo much better than him. He's welcome to his blonde, she will be miserable
