Just an update:

-Had the initial consultation with a lawyer, he is great, he can file in less than 2 hours if necessary
-H has not gone on any night runs (yet) - 3 nights in the house is a record over here.
-H is DB'ing me right back now. Friendly, does not tee up conversations, but is nice/curt if talked to. wth?

Some H positive changes:
doing dishes, now acknowledges me, hate eye's are gone, seems kinder when approached

Some BlueSea positive changes:
sleeping thru the night - no 3am security camera checks, can smile now, more peacefulness and thinking ahead about choice: such as, in the future, 'Can I stand to be brushing my teeth next to someone that bashed my brains out just a few months ago?' - just momentarily - because 3 nights at home does not constitute a dumped OW and ended affair.

That's all - trying to enjoy the kids and using these days to self-reflect and recoup from the intensity that things were before. I am not a newbie anymore. I am no longer completely engulfed in fire, desperately running & fanning the flames - thank God for that.
BlueSea


M:50 H:49
D:16 S:13
M:23 T:25
BD: Feb 25th 2020
EA/PA: Dec 2019 - June 11, 2020
Behind every broken woman is a broken man...