Had a test to make sure the blood vessels in my neck aren't contributing to my intermittent vision problem. Results expected tomorrow. The nurse/tech didn't have a gurney waiting to rush me to surgery so there is that.
Spent the night before the test at my kids. Because they are much closer to the VA hospital and they offered. Watched the Jumanji movie with "The Rock". Nice installment, had a "Breakfast Club" feel to it.
Was in the house for about twenty minutes on Monday. BIL let me in before he had to leave for work. Sorted a little bit of mail and saw the gas bill has a substantial balance on it. My name, not been home, court order says she is responsible. She's been asking for help but won't cooperate with letting me know when I could be there or even to be home to reside there.
Bringing this up because I will have to move out of friend's place. Likely near the two kids. Maybe the floor above them or a few blocks away. Both have pros and cons. I'll need to have utilities so... I suspect I will end up having the service shut off, get the final bill and pay it. Current internal debate is tell her before or after... or even at all. Don't want to be a jerk about it. Still have lots of stuff at home.
Court is in limbo here (closed) and next Wednesday there is a conference call between the judge and both lawyers. Happens to be on my birthday... I suppose it will be rough if I let it be...
Yeah... still wanting to R with her. Not as much but definitely not interested in a replacement. Just want her. Not sure how messed up that is... or even if that is normal.
I've been using a CPAP for about a week. First time I used it was at the kids. Daughter said I didn't snore and usually am very loud. She was worried and had to check that I was breathing. Does take a little getting used to. Exhaling against the pressure more than the mask.
Still have days where I tailspin and stuff gets dark. Not as often and fighting it off better. By that I mean it takes less time to get out of the tail spin. Sometimes it takes a frozen custard... sometimes its something a little less fattening. I miss going to the gym.
Praying for all of you. Comment or not but input is always welcome. Oh... Key Lime Pie frozen custard on the 23rd... you know I will. If you were close enough I'd invite ya and we could run them out. Oh yeah... that good.
H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1
