I'm really sorry to hear about your health situation. Hope you can have the surgery soon and be on the road to good health again. This type thing feels compounded when you don't have emotional support. Do you have family that live nearby?

I read your post and could see the emotional pain you have about losing everyone that was connected through your W. I wish I knew what to say that would make you feel better. (((hugs)))

When you told of how cold and unconcerned she was about your gallbladder attack, and wouldn't even hang around the doctor's office.........I was nodding my head and thinking, "That's just like a wayward W!" You were closer to the stark reality than you probably realized when you said she seemed more annoyed than concerned that you could be dying. There's nothing colder than the heart of a WW.

I hope you will keep us updated about your surgery. Do you have a friend that could be with you, and drive you home from the hospital?

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!