Alison: when he turned up unannounced I was still in my pyjamas so couldn't exactly make out like I was off out anywhere. I am quite frightened of him actually, don't want to poke him into bad behaviour until I have my divorce ducks in a row. Lawyer is sending me over initial stuff tomorrow. I'm still undecided about when to tell H I'm initiating divorce, I kind of keep expecting him to say he's doing it or dropping some other bomb, but in any case if he doesn't I will. I would prefer him to do it as hopefully he would feel guilty enough to behave well and be amicable, but I'm not hanging about forever, I need to protect myself and I hate his deception so much I just want to cut things off now.
Steve: I can see why you might think that, and for a long time maybe that would have been true. However, now it's not. I am detached. The joint account I have to check sometimes to make sure he's not doing anything too outrageous with our joint funds as I don't trust him. The icloud thing I was searching for a decent photo of me to upload and happened across his selfies and thought how stupid I had been not to realise. The walk, I'm just keeping things civil.
My date last night was fantastic, 3 hours talking to a hot, clever, funny man. We are going to meet again sometime. I'm not sure he has the time to devote to a R with me but I'll just play it by ear and keep dating other men too. I really really liked him so I hope it goes somewhere. Best of a bad bunch by a mile!
