Why did you go on the walk with him, Dilly? I understand how he's horrible company, he's lying to you and yourself and you hate that (anyone would) and that he shows you less care and interest than would be reasonable to expect from a polite acquaintance. Are you afraid of what would happen if you say 'no' when he asks you to walk with him? I have no idea why he wants those walks, other than perhaps he likes the idea of a woman listening and nodding and making sympathetic noises when he lists his future plans and current self inflicted woes. But you don't have to provide that service, and I don't know why you would. It seems there's a lot of indirectness going on here - his is obvious, and you can't control it, but yours is more subtle - there's an inauthenticity in you that isn't equal to his dishonesty, but is on a spectrum with it. Spending optional social time without someone who treats you badly, who you dislike, and whose behaviour has a horrible effect on you seems strange. Is that something you could change?
