A, I probably did make myself too vulnerable with H and embarrassed myself. I didn’t write verbatim our conversation; there was an element of our communication where I projected neediness, begging etc. I’m not proud from a DB sense, but I got some thoughts and feelings off my chest and that felt important at the time.
I’m worried that I have pushed by situation beyond the point of any R fixes or DB methods such as going dark. I think H feels cornered to make a decision. And I now have to act on my boundary.
When we were discussing the housing situation, I was brought back to the exact same conversation three months ago when we first S. And I pictured us having the same convo in 6 months and then again in a year. I remember in your sitch that your H was making it pretty clear through your S that he planned on returning at a particular point. Mine has only moved further away. I believe his timeline is based on his confusion (and worry about the children) and finances. If we’re honest, it makes financial sense for him to wait on a D and conversely, it makes financial sense for me to do it now.
I am low today and appreciate every little comment and thought from people on this forum, so keep them coming. Xx
