Cest_Moi, your feeling on "I don't know what to do. I want the marriage, but I also don't feel like I deserve to be strung along like this." is completely legitimate and common too. Some of the best advice I got in my sitch was to set a date. If my W wasn't committed back to the marriage by that date then I would go file for D myself.
The suggestion was one year post BD. Since my BD was 12/23, I picked the first business day after, which that year I believe was 1/3/2019. I cannot tell you how scary and yet freeing that was. Scary because when I set it there was a real possibility that I would be filing for D on that date. Freeing because it gave me something to look forward to. It gave me a sense of control in an uncontrollable situation. And it felt good to know that, by my own choice, limbo was not going to last forever!
As far as what he told you on April 4th. There is a reason we say believe nothing they say,and only half of what hey do. WAS are notorious for grand pronouncements. "I have a place!" Likely he had place identified, and to keep you off kilter he made it sound like it was secured. When he is moving out, then you can believe him.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
