It has been 10 months and she keeps blaming, insulting, ignoring me, disrespecting me.
So you have been treated very very poorly by her for quite awhile. What is it that makes you want to be in a R with this version of her? I do understand the impact of having kids together and how that can cause you to put up with a lot to avoid blowing up the family unit, but at some point you have to look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself the hard questions about whether you are really happy and whether this person is good for you. If your best friend was in your sitch, and being treated how you have been treated, and asked you for advice, what would tell him to do?
You are getting yourself on the right track. Listen to your L. Go get 50/50 custody. Stay calm in all, ALL, interactions with her. Never take the bait. Never argue. NEVER a bad word about her to the kids. Your R with her, at least for the time being, is just all business, nothing else. She can stomp and shout and threaten and insult and on and on and it DOES NOT AFFECT YOU. You are a calm and unwavering slab of granite. In fact, you may even find her behavior to be somewhat amusing, like watching a child throw a tantrum. She cannot get to you. GAL GAL GAL. Be an Amazing Dad.
Keep improving, you may not believe at the moment how things will get better, but they will if you are committed to the right path.
