Resist the urge to overreact to things like this. Early on my W would do things like this. And I would try to attach significance to it. You cannot. Remember: Consistent behavior over a long period of time. If she is still doing things like this 6 months from now, with no signs of another EA, then you can trust it.
Yes, I know.
Strangely enough, I feel like I am doing the opposite. With every day that goes by and every little sign she shows me or doesn't show me, I feel like I am trusting her less and less. Last night after she went to bed, I started researching Texas Alimony laws, and required Divorce forms. I started imagining how I would tell her I wanted a divorce. I'm starting to feel like I will never trust or believe her again and that starting over with a clean slate with someone else might be what's better for me. I am going to wait until at least after this weekend, but I am starting to feel like I don't want to save my marriage either.
Is this normal? Is there a way to stop or reverse this in me?
