Well, it’s been a few weeks since I’ve been on and it was because things were kind of in a stale holding pattern with H. Quarantine has been interesting, and he has only gone to walk with his friends.
So in therapy, my IC has mentioned that I need to include him in decisions, treat him like he is part of the family. So, my car lease was up. I needed to know if I should get a car more economical for me only, or a model similar to our current car. Last week, I held my breath and broached the question; Me-hey the lease is up on my car soon, do you have any opinion? H- opinion on what? Me-what kind of car should I get? H- get what we have again. Me-ok, let me see what is available. I was thinking of getting “X” but it is too expensive, let me see what I can find out.
So during the week, I wanted to speak with him, but he would go to work and come home and never talk to me or D. Finally, Friday I told him I had narrowed the car down, he expressed the color he wanted and wanted to know what dealers I had called and did I get a good deal. I answered his questions, thinking this is a good thing, I am including him and having a normal conversation. This car is always in my name only, so ultimately my responsibility but I wanted to include him.
Today I got the car. When I came home, he was napping. When he woke up I asked him if he wanted to see the car and if I could show him. He said yes. So we went outside and I showed him the features and the bells and whistles. I was in the middle of making dinner so I offered to him to take it for a spin. He did and when he came back I noticed his cell was open to the camera. Friends, I went onto his fake Facebook and he posted “look at my new rocket ship” next race car will be in “. ..” the other woman’s country. Ugh. OW1 has moved on, and apparently he has #2 now. Also in the other country. The only reason I know this is she reacted to his post. I looked and he had posted “I love you” to her profile pic. So, although I am encouraged by his ability to speak with me, he isn’t still way lost and that makes me sad. On the plus side, I got a new car that is ALL MINE.
