In the beginning part of your last post you call him a “great father, great husband , and great guy” and at the end of the post you say he was so distant and removed.....
Which is the reality? What made him so great? What made him so distant and removed?
I think putting some logic to the things you say might help a little.
And asking him to stay in the house while he has an affair. That’s on you, girl. Why would you do that to yourself? Why would make having an affair a. Ok. You are basically saying “I am ok with being your plan B , if it doesn’t work out, I’m right here waiting for you” you do think more of yourself than that, don’t you???