Hey Phoenix, I remember you well. Thanks for checking in.
I'm sure a small bit of your depression might ease when you find you can exercise with regularity again. I know it is helpful to you. While it isn't a cure it is a great management tool and I hope it helps you.
Everything is especially complicated by Covid19, and I do think it is impacting all of our mental well being in various ways. So while you may think it's "just you" (you didn't say that) there are I'm sure effects of the pandemic hitting you in subtle and overt ways.You are not alone in that part.
Also, good on you for continuously battling your anger. I like to think of it as practice. You might slip a bit on some days, but it's not like you have one final end goal you will reach in 2 weeks time. All you can do is continue to practice. You could even bring D6 in on this idea and thank her for helping you in your practice. I think it's good for kids to see that they don't have to be perfect, but they do need to try.
I like the single game plan. I had thought for myself that I might start thinking about dating this summer (separated about 1.5 years now, divorce was final in January). I'm finding that NOPE I'm definitely not interested in that like I thought I might be. And that feels kind of relieving in some ways. I'm loving being single not because I don't like other people, but more because I'm really relishing not having my life habits be subject to someone else's opinion. I like being in charge of my own life, and partnership requires compromise. A beautiful type of compromise, but I'm just not feeling that yet. Let's be selfish for a while and live according to only our own rules and habits.
Anyway, I appreciated this update because it's real. You're doing well and also growing which can be painful.
