And then it was over.

[BlueSea]

LH, DillyDaf - I appreciate both of your reaction to how H is treating me - because it makes me REALLY think what behavior I am accepting from him is off the charts not okay. I was actually okay with the incumbent word, made me feel better. I am embarrassed about that. I hate that I come off like a wallflower to him, sometimes even afraid to speak. I stutter, and speak softly, and he has to ask me to repeat it - and I get mad inside, because he knows he has the power. Even though I practiced what I was going to say, I wilt.

I used to think he was the most handsome guy....but something about him has become ugly. No lie. He stays up all night. His face is strangely swollen. He has a sty that has not healed right and its kind of disfiguring. He exercises alot and with the extra testosterone and HGH shots, he is pretty shredded...and when I make dinner he just stares...not nicely...and all of THAT intimidates me. Any ideas on how to counter that?

But I want you all to know, I am trying! I read, and read the posts, and other threads and MWD book, and pray. I want to do the right thing. So, for now, what I do know is the basics, I will not initiate anything, respond only (friendly, cordial, to the point answers) - absolutely no R talks. Note what works and doesn't work. This is pretty basic, but I can do that. If you have an additional tip, throw it out there.

A friend of mine is taking me out of here for a few hours tomorrow. That is a good thing.

Read Bluewaves thread when you have time.

LH - I tried to use search to do this, no luck, any chance you can paste a link to get to it?