I have merged your threads together in Newcomers. Please stick to one thread until you've reached 100 postings/replies.
You also have a couple of threads in the Divorce section that you can link into this thread if you so desire.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
