[LiM]

Maybe the reason I needed to post was so that I would be asked some hard questions. Thanks for asking those questions.

Whats my plan? What do I want for me? Honestly, I don't even know right now. Will I be ok? Yes. Will I come out the other side better than ok? Yes. Will I continue to be the rock and the go to person for my daughters? Yes.

What have I learned? Maybe not enough. I know this is not my fault. These are her demons and she has to deal with them. And if it ends our 25+ years as a couple, then that's on her. I know I took her back to quickly. At the first sign of remorse, I didn't just show her the door I left open for her. I picked her up and rushed her back home. That's on me. I've learned to let go and hand things over to God. Maybe not good enough but my life is so much more peaceful and less stressful than before; even in the midst of a trial.

I know I deserve better. I know I deserve a mate that doesn't keep a third party emotionally within the midst of our marriage. So why is it so hard to just walk away and say "To H*ll with It!"? I guess if it were easy, this site wouldn't exist.