Through the World Barefooted -- Gerda's LBS Guide

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Also -- back in those days, I never answered your question, I disappeared for a while. But here is my answer --

Other signs of mania -- he would pass out early (drunk) but get up at like 3 am, totally impulsive and rash decisions, EXTREMELY grandiose ideas.

Family history -- I think there is mental illness there, both parents but not diagnosed. (And definitely was for my parents and brother. My mom was diagnosed variously with bipolar, my brother with NPD, etc.) H and his father are both alcoholics. He used drugs in his teens and early 20's, in MLC abused sleeping pills and magnesium citrate.

He did have several concussions as a kid/teen.

Not sure about hormone imbalances like thyroid disease. Grew up in a communist country and then in parts of the US where he surely had exposure to toxins like heavy metals. Early in MLC I wondered if he had mercury poisoning. His abuse of magnesium citrate has been since 2013, 5-10 times the recommended dosage, and taken DAILY. Now he also vapes.

My D tells me he cries a lot and told her, "Sometimes you have to cry." I hate to hear that. I don't want to think he even has a heart anymore, it's too painful.